Tombstone 30s

I am turning 40 in just 9 short days!

I never considered 40 old before hubby and I got married and started trying to get pregnant. Even then, I didn’t feel it was old. But then something changed. A friend of mine who turned 40 last year went to a fertility specialist. She shared with me what she learned; the specialist made it sound like it was nearly impossible for someone over the age of 40 to become pregnant naturally. So, ever since then I have felt like 40 was kind of the cutoff line. I felt like it had to happen before my 40th birthday if there was any chance of getting pregnant.

We went to a church on Sunday and the sermon was talking about the natural and the supernatural. The pastor said that we don’t have to just trust the natural – what the world and the natural order of things tells us is possible. We can trust the supernatural, because God is in the business of the supernatural.

I was texting my sweet friend Ellen after becoming very frustrated about this situation one weekend and she said: “God’s not limited by our age. He’s not limited by anything.”

I know they are both right. So, why do I have such a hard time believing that God would work things out for me? The Bible is filled with examples of God doing the impossible in peoples’ lives. If he did it for them, why don’t I believe He can do the same thing for me? Maybe that’s not the problem. I believe that God is able to do anything. If I am honest with myself, I guess I question whether he is willing to do those things for me. I think that sting may be worse than not believing that God can do the impossible. I let the times that I have cried out to God and asked for a something and his answer has been “no” to overshadow the times that he has answered “yes”. God may have said no to healing people I love. He answered “no” to things I have begged him to give me. His chose not to give me talents and gifts I have asked for. But what about the things he has said yes to? What about all the times he has moved to make the impossible happen in my life?

I am married to an amazing man who loves me and cares for me.

 I am living my dream of being a writer.

I get to minister to kids at an amazing church.

I have overcome my extreme shyness that I had as a kid.

The list goes on. All of these are things that happened because God moved or worked something out that was impossible in my natural abilities or mindsets. I need to remember and be reminded of these when I question whether God is willing to move in a supernatural way in my life.

One of my favorite things to tell the kids in my class at church is that nothing is impossible with God. (Luke 1:37; Matthew 19:26) That statement is followed by a period. That means it’s a complete thought. There is no but or however or if. I need to learn to put a period there in my own life and not add stipulations to what God can do. He can and will work in supernatural ways in my life.

P.S. My friend that went to the fertility specialist – She is pregnant …and conceived without the help of the specialist 🙂 Nothing is impossible with God.

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