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Month: January 2016

My Heart’s Desire


Let me preface this post by saying that I believe God’s word to be true…all of it.  That being said, some verses are difficult. We wrestle with them and try to understand what they mean for our lives. Sometimes we figure it out out and other times we are left wondering.

The verse that I am currently wrestling with is Psalm 37:4. It’s one of those verses that people like to throw at you because it offers hope. “Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Everyone wants to believe that the deepest longings of their hearts will be fulfilled, but what happens when we begin to realize that those desires will not likely be fulfilled? What do you do with with a verse like Psalm 37:4 then?

One of the desires of my heart has been to have a baby. My husband and I have been trying. (FYI – Yes, we know what you have to do to get pregnant. You have to love the people who like to question you about that.) Unfortunately, it has not happened yet. At first I was hopeful. I mean, God promises to give us the desires of our hearts, right? That’s what all my friends have been telling me. However, in the past couple of months I have come to a point where I am not so certain. Some may say that I have lost hope, but I don’t think so. I still hope that it happens. However, I am at a place of peace; I am content. Regardless of what happens, I know God has a plan for us that is far beyond anything I can dream or imagine. I think often the desires of our hearts are limited to what we can imagine – finding a spouse, having a baby, moving up the ladder at work, etc. The awesome thing we need to understand is that God isn’t into being limited by our thoughts. He is so much bigger than that and so are his plans for us.

Does this mean that my desire for a baby goes away? I don’t think so. I don’t think that desire will ever go away. However, I can have joy in knowing that he is able to do things in my life far greater than I can even think to ask for or desire.


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PSA for the Ladies


Today I want to break away from my normal topics of choice to write about  something a little lighter but very important. This post is a public service announcement for all my ladies out there. It has to do with lingerie. You know, those pretty, sexy little things made out of lace and satin. They look so cute on the hanger. They always seem like a good idea at the time. You buy them with the thought that your husband will find you irresistible and to give your confidence a bit of a boost. For that reason, you are willing to pay a ridiculous amount of money on something that will only stay on for mere minutes (because let’s be honest, that thing isn’t going back on tonight – you are going to put on your cozy pajama pants as soon as possible).

However, you may quickly find your confidence diminishing. The majority of these things use those tiny hooks and loops to hold it together. And, of course, they are always in the back which makes it next to impossible to put on by yourself unless you are a contortionist. Also, the designers try to be kind by putting more than one set of these hooks on the item so that you can wear it if you gain or lose a little bit of weight. How kind of them, but seriously, it just makes things more confusing. When you have three rows of about twenty hooks and no eyes on the back of your head, it is easy to hook it on a loop on the wrong row or even worse, to miss a row. When the latter happens and you don’t catch it immediately, you have to then unhook all of them up to that point and redo it.  If you get really daring and get something that has more than one piece, you may find yourself having to secretly text a trusted friend or Googling a how-to video.

So, ladies, I am here to offer an extremely important warning: always do a test run prior to the night you plan to wear it! Otherwise, you may end up in the bathroom for 45 minutes trying to put the thing on while your husband is waiting in the other room. Trust me, it will save you some tears and cursing that night.


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