Writer, Teacher, Planner, Dreamer

Month: May 2014

Slowing Down

cartoon street

“Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” – Ferris Bueller from “Ferris Bueller’s Day Off”

Lately I have become aware of how busy my life is. I work, go to school, volunteer and lead children’s ministry at my church in addition to all the other general adult responsibilities that must be done. I have family, friends and church to stay connected with. As a result, most of my life is spent moving at a crazy fast speed from one meeting or project or person to the next. Don’t get me wrong, all of these things are good ways to spend time. And I’m not a big fan of laziness. I believe in being productive. However, I have begun to feel like I have lost sense of what is important.

I recently found myself sitting on a park bench with my guy. We had no time restraints; just sitting, talking and enjoying each other and our surroundings. We saw a small frog hopping along the sidewalk in front of us. We sat there and watched and laughed as it hopped by. Later we were serenaded by the croaks of one of his friends. As the sky grew darker, we were entertained by a light show put on by the lightening bugs. Every since that night I have become aware of all of the things that I miss as a result of being so busy. It has become clear that my calendar is ruling my life instead of the other way around. My life isn’t so busy because it has to be. Instead, it is a choice that I made to try to avoid feeling alone and to keep from having to face my painful emotions at times.

So, since that night I have been making some changes. One is walking slower. Previously, walking was only a means to get somewhere. Looking straight ahead and walking as quickly as possible to where I needed to be. I have begun to realize that the journey should be savored just as much as reaching the destination. Another change has been not scheduling things – especially people – back to back. This has meant that I cannot necessarily connect with as many people as I would like to in a week. However, it does mean that I can give them my complete devotion and time when I do. They don’t have to feel like they are on a timer when they are with me. I think shows more respect and care to others, too.

I am sure these are just the beginning of the changes that I will be making, which is a bit scary for me. But, I am learning to enjoy my journey.

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Life is A Wild Ride

rollercoaster

A wild ride! That is the most accurate description I can come up with for life. Have you ever gone to an amusement park and waited to get on a ride thinking, yea this will be pretty cool? I’m kind of tired of walking around the park. I can sit back, relax and enjoy this ride. Then you get in, strap your seatbelt and within 30 seconds you are flipped upside down at an accelerated speed that you did not expect. Suddenly, your mind is racing at the same speed as the ride. You find yourself thinking what is going on here?! How did I get here? This isn’t what I signed up for.

When you find yourself in this situation, I have found that you can respond in a few different ways. First, you can close your eyes and pray for it to be over fast, and that you come out of the situation unharmed. When you respond this way, there is little if any enjoyment. You are too busy worrying and waiting for it to be over that that you miss out of a lot of things. The view-things that God may want to show you. The excitement-a new adventure with new lessons to be learned. Just to name a few.

Another response can be to gauge your reaction based on those around you. A couple of years ago I went to Disney. We were at Hollywood Studios and my friend Misty and I rode the Tower of Terror. I was feeling okay about this situation until the ride shot us up in the air and held us suspended for a bit. All of the sudden a guy from the back says something along the lines of, “forgive me everyone but I am going to scream like a baby here.” All of the sudden terror sets in. I’m like what does he know that don’t?! What have I gotten myself into here? Suddenly my hand starts to flail looking for anything to hold on to. Suddenly, my friend grabs my hand and the shaft drops and we fall. When life throws us up in the air, we can allow others to instill fear or we can grab hold of the hands of our friends and ride it out together.

Finally, we can accept it for what it is and enjoy the ride. Yea, it may not be what I expected, but that doesn’t mean it can’t be good. It may be a little faster and crazier than I expected but then again if I had that foreknowledge I would have probably opted out and missed out on the adventure.

I have decided that I am going to enjoy the ride.

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