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Category: Trust

Even if He Does Not

In the midst of struggles it can be difficult to remain faithful. Our lives can be filled with wonderful things, but our vision becomes clouded keeping us from seeing and enjoying those things in hard times.  I am currently stuck in that place right now.  I have let my heart and mind get so focused on those things not going the way I want that I have allowed it to block my joy.  I have been wrestling with God about this.  In my spirit on Sunday morning, the question that kept being asked was: “but even if he doesn’t?”

What if God doesn’t give me what I want?  Why am I putting that situation before God’s plans or desires? Am I hinging what I believe about God on how he settles that one thing?  Its easy to say we trust God.  Its harder to say I trust God even if he doesn’t do what I want him to do.

“But even if he does not” was the response that Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego gave to King Nebuchadnezzar in Daniel 3.  I went back and read about that as I tried to answer that question for myself. The king had built an image of gold that everyone was expected to bow down to and worship.  He had also built a fiery furnace and anyone that refused to bow down to the golden image would be put to death in the fire.  Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego were jews who worked for the king.  They worshiped God and were to worship no other, and so they refused to bow down to the image the King had created. King Nebuchadnezzar said to them, “if you do not worship it, you will be thrown immediately into a blazing furnace. Then what god will be able to rescue you from my hand?”  (Daniel 3:15, NIV)  They responded by saying: “If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”  (Daniel 3:17-18, NIV)

Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego were not willing to put anything above God….they were even willing to give their own lives in the fiery furnace.  What are we putting above God?   We may not be tempted to bow down to a golden statue.  But, often we are willing to bow down to other things – things that we want and desire that have been placed before us – things like money, status, possessions and relationships. These things in and of themselves are not bad.  But, when we put our pursuit of those things above God, then there is a problem.  When it comes to pursuing those things, can we say but even if he does not?

…even if he doesn’t heal me
…even if I don’t get pregnant
…even if I continue to struggle with this sin

Are we willing to trust God and face the fire?

Choosing to Let Go


One of my best memories was walking the jetty during our trip to Plymouth, MA this summer. To the right is a picture of my hubby standing on the jetty to give you an idea of what it is like. (Note: we are not responsible for the graffiti. 🙂 You see, I am a klutz. I am not graceful in any sense of the word. So, I was a bit apprehensive about walking it at first. But, Andy told me it would be fine. When it came time to walk out, my apprehension turned to down right fear. The jetty didn’t seem very wide. And there was something about seeing the water move on both sides that played with my mind and made me feel like everything was moving. I didn’t trust that the rocks that I had to step on were sturdy enough. Luckily, there was a metal rope railing along one side as you can see in the picture, but I quickly learned that the railing didn’t go all the way out. I stood frozen and debating whether to attempt the walk or not. Andy asked if I wanted to go back. But, I said no — I wanted to do it. Eventually, I had to let go of the rail and take one step after another trusting that the rocks were not going to slide out from underneath of me.

Trust is something that God has been working on in me a lot lately. I have a hard time trusting God. It is kinda like walking the jetty – I am usually scared that everything will crumble and fall out beneath my every step. There is a song that we sang in church last week called “Nothing I Hold On To”. (You can listen to it here: Nothing I Hold On To – Will Reagan and United Pursuit) One of the verses says: “I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open.”  When we were singing that song, I thought again about my trip across the jetty. If I wanted to make it across, I had to be willing to let go of the rail and trust my feet and the rocks beneath me. Learning to trust God is much the same way. Holding our hands open is usually seen as a symbol of sacrifice, but I also think it is a symbol of trust. That line, “I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open”, to me it means being willing to let go of the thing that make me feel safe and gives me security and instead reaching out and holding on to God and what he has promised. He will guide and direct me. He will never leave me. He will give me strength. He will help me. He will hold me up. He will never let me down.

Each step across the jetty was a little bit easier. With each step, I realized that the rocks were firmly in place and I wasn’t going to fall. The same is true with God. Once we let go and reach out to Him, we learn that everything that He has promised it true. And as a result, each step becomes a little bit easier to take.


Here we are after having made it to the end of the jetty. As you can probably tell from the smile on my face, I was pretty proud of myself. I felt victorious! Then I remembered we had to walk all the way back…

The walk back was actually a lot better than the walk out. I had learned to trust the rocks and my feet, so I was actually able to soak in the beauty of the view and noticed lots of cool things that I was too anxious to notice on the way out. When we learn to trust God, we will notice things around us that we didn’t see before because our eyes where shut so tight with fear before. We will also be able to stop and help others along the way too because our hands are no longer clenched white knuckled for security.

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